A whole lot has been going on with me. Namely, new job with zero InterNet time, so I am no longer on MySpace except for maybe an hour a week. This means: 1) no more blogs (oh, boo hoo. I'm sure you're so upset. Although, now that i stop to think about it, whenever I do post anything new, I always get comments from some very unlikely people) 2) and I don't give a shit about you fucking stupid dildoheads that post three bulletins in a row assuming that I need to know what your favorite color, restaurant in Echo Park, and last person you had a crush on. In case you don't know, I used to have a policy of erasing people off of MySpace who exhibit these moronic tendencies, but now that I've taken a step back, I realize that I was the moron all along. Why would I even bother? Last night, my girlfrined was supposed to come home form work at 11 o'clock. She never came. I went to sleep, and woke up at 5 in the morning. Shocked that she still wasn't there. I had a nightmare afterwards. I was crying about her in the nightmare. Have you ever cried in a nightmare? thjought not, it's very rare. She wouldn't answer her phone. I went to work in the morning and I still felt like I was in a nightmare. It was that physical feeling where you're so upset that you're whole body has this sinking feeling. I think it's the feeling described as "heart-break" And I kept thinking that I deserved it because I'm sure I've been guilty of doing the same thing. anyway, I could go on forever about the whole thing, in tons of detail, but I'm not because nothing really matters anyway. You need to always remember that: Whenever something seems overwhelming, picture yourself a month in the future and how insignificant the whole issue will seem. That really works for me. Also, once when you truly enjoy emotional pain, this world is an absolute paradise. So, I'ld suggest meditating onj that. And always remember, not caring about most thngs is the true path to happiness.